Hey there sunshine! My name is Hannabeth. Life’s been a rollercoaster so far, and I’ve got a plethora of stories to share. I started this blog for a few reasons, mostly I want to show you it’s not all downhill from here. There will be laughs to be had, thoughts unfiltered and a hellofa’ lot of nerding! Life can be rough, but it doesn’t have to be a neverending crapshoot;After all you know what they say, when life gives you lemons make lemonade-make damn good lemonade.
CHAPTER ONE:THE GIRL
I’m just a simple gal. I try to see the sunshine even when it’s a hurricane out there. I love video games and Starwars. I have a passion for photography and music is in my blood. I love to read and write in my spare time-I’m usually three notbooks down and five books in. Oh, and I’m a bit of a foodie(fatty). I only dream big and I never back down from a challenge. I love anything that gets my creativity flowing and sets my spark alight, which is why I’m so fond of adventuring. But underneith it all, I’m totally just a huge nerd at heart❤.
Star Wars for me is not just a trilogy, or a nastalgic trip down memory lane. To me it is a culture. One that leads to an even larger more expansive community at it’s core. The nerd/geek community. This is a community of like minded, kind souled people, one I have been proud to be a part of for many years. It has encouraged me to grow past my anxiety, to explore new opportunites, and above all to share this growth and expirience with others.
CHAPTER TWO:WHAT MAKES THE GIRL?
Nothing lasts forever, and I learned that very young. My father passed away from cancer when I was just sixteen. It turned my whole world upsidedown. I have struggled nearly mu whole life with depression, anxiety and PTSD, but losing the man who raised me really pulled the rug out from under me. I lost all motivation to do anything or go anywhere, or care about where life was headed. Getting through any loss is hard, but it was especially tough trying to move past the loss of my father, best friend and mentor. Shit, this is the man that moved mountains for me;my superhero.
At sixteen I was angry, depressed, scared and living alone. It was hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel more often than not. Sometimes it felt like marco-polloing my way through blackness. I wish I could say I wished it all away, smiled every day and it got better, but that was not the case. There was a lot of crying, cussing and confusion involved. Not to mention way to much anger, but I knew this was not what my dad wanted me to be. I knew this was a “Do or do not” situation, so I pulled out the big guns and I kicked in the butt. It was exhausting work mentally, but I did it. I accepted life, I chose to look on the bright side and I chose to carry on the good memories rather than sulk in the devestation.
Live and let live, and explore all the things!
For a while I let loss become all that I was. I have been through loss, I have been through rough times, but that’s not who I am. Life may shape me here and there but I will always be Hannabeth. A nerd, a writer, a gamer, an optimist and one hellofa’ weirdo! 😁
CHAPTER THREE: ONWARDS AND UPWARDS
Moving on to the lighter side of things, so far life has really taught me to enjoy the company of those you love and truly make the most of each day. It taught me to explore and discover-don’t knock it ’til you try it! It taught me you have to work hard, it might suck, and you might cry or breakdown cussing, but in the end everything will be worth it. All of your expiriences and “the shit hit the fan” situations are just temporary speed bumps, learning curbs if you will. You see, life has this funny way of throwing shitstorms before the rainbow, but it always puts you right where you need to be.
It may have been a crazy ride to get to where I am today, but I wouldn’t change anything. In life you can either be a victim of your circumstances or you can be the phoenix that rises from them. I chose to be the phoenix.